Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the doubt that’s in me
Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the hate that’s in me
You
Say my name
Like it is
A question
Like you are
Testing
The shape of it
On your tongue
I slowly lean towards her expecting some response yet I feel
She barely moves in any direction and searches something while
I retract my intend of embracement to regain a firm stand
She embraces the utter irony and opens her big mouth
Your voice arrives before you do
Wrapped in velvet, stained inside
Your voice folds me like paper
Sharp at the edges, blood in the folds
Words hitting every part of skin
Repression, coercion
Desperation, provocation
Alienate me, manipulate me, humiliate me, I capitulate
Submission, deception
Accusation, obfuscation
Intimidate me, devaluate me, overshadow me, I capitulate
I retreat
Words come out of her mouth
The words fall out of you
Jagged shards of glass swallowed too fast
You scream at me in a language I used to know
But the syntax is fists now
The grammar’s knees and elbows
And the punctuation breaks on my skull
There’s a pulse under the floorboards
It skips when you smile
You press your hands against my chest
And call it love
Heed my call
Rise and fall
Heed my call
Watch my life descending
