Four Ways To Miss You

Yesterday’s coffee

Still cold by the sink

I drink it anyway

Just to taste how you think

I miss you like a song I can’t remember

Every line there

But the words fall through

I reach for the sound

But my voice won’t render

Every broken note keeps leading back to you

I miss you like a song I can’t remember

And it kills me that the melody is you

Midnight turns heavy

On this side of the bed

Your pillow stays perfect

While my side’s a mess instead

I miss you like a train I never boarded

Watching it pull away while the sky turned blue

Whole life packed in a moment I aborted

All the open doors slamming shut on cue

I miss you like a train I never boarded

And the only destination now is you

Streetlight reflections

In a dark TV screen

Your sweater on the chair back

Still holds your shape in the seam

I miss you like a truth I keep avoiding

Swallow every word but it bleeds right through

Smile for the world while my chest’s imploding

Every quiet room keeps shouting you

I miss you like a truth I keep avoiding

Because once I say it

I lost you for good too

Sunday comes gentle

With its soft little lies

Says I’ll heal in time

While your name floods my eyes

I miss you like a home that I abandoned

Keys in my pocket

But the door feels new

Windows are glowing with a life imagined

Every laughing shadow looks a bit like you

I miss you like a home that I abandoned

And I stand on the sidewalk

Still choosing you

If loving you hurt

I’d do it again

Give me the ache

Over the end

If losing you’s fate

Then I’ll break on cue

Because any old life

Means nothing

Not compared to you