own **** (Explicit)

'Cause I've been dealing with my own shit, oh oh

Feeling all these emotions, oh, oh

Go on and wait all night, all day

I won't call you back

(Oh-oh)

I can't see, brain's all foggy

The winds are too strong, the clouds upon me

I wish I could sleep but thoughts run too deep

And I don't know how long it'll be

(Oh-oh)

And you want something I can't give, uh

'Cause I've been lost in the middle of it

I got **** to figure out, figuratively speaking

I just need a minute for me, oh-oh

I know nights can get so cold

And I hate being alone

But I can't pick up the phone

'Cause I've been dealing with my own shit, oh, oh

Feeling all these emotions, oh, oh

Go on and wait all night, all day

I won't call you back

'Cause I've been dealing with my own shit, oh, oh

And no one even knows it, oh, oh

But God, I swear I can't take another day like that

(Oh-oh)

I tried **

God, I hug trees

Forced myself to yoga and pilates

I quit the coffee

Tried to find peace but

(Nothing really did it for me)

And if I'm honest, I just need a little time for myself

You know that picture of us two, I put it right on the shelf

I wish I loved me like you do, know that's corny as hell

But it's true as well

I ain't gotta tell ya, oh-oh

I know nights can get so cold

And you hate being alone

But I can't pick up the phone

'Cause I've been dealing with my own shit, oh, oh

Feeling all these emotions, oh, oh

Go on and wait all night, all day

I won't call you back

'Cause I've been dealing with my own shit, oh, oh

And no one even knows it, oh, oh

But God, I swear I can't take another day like that

(Oh-oh)