One of the Boys (Explicit)

One of the boys for the first time in my life

I was lowly and wild

I really thought that I was king of the night

Give me a twelve pack, baby

I'm a conduit

For the piss and the filth and the heart and the hell of it

Well the feeling ripped right through my night

Swooping like a bat on my busted bike

Another show house where they lose their minds

All I knew was I was ready to lose mine

Me and Ben got so drunk and swam naked in the James down by the overlook

When I say that took something in me

Maybe it took something I shoulda shook

Looking back I see it in another light

Remember that full moon when Bizzle caught the feeling and he pulled a knife?

Back when a bottle of red was practically a pipe bomb

The sun is rising on your true colors splattered all across the lawn

Well somebody bit the apple

Now all that matters is right and wrong

The boys are ****ed

I guess they always were

Try not to dwell on it for too long

Pour one out for the ones who died

Hold onto your quiet joys

Raise a glass for the last time I was ever one of the boys

Do you know how it feels to lose the feeling?

It's got me down

I was the cockamamie queen of Babylon

Now I'm 30 tryna capture it in a song

Like a pumpkin left on the porch too long

I changed

But somewhere there in the middle I was the perfect swirl of strong and strange

Ba ba ba