Just How Sick I Am

How easy it would be

To end my own life

To stop this damn disease

How nice it could become

With such a simple tug

A gunshot through my head

But for some reason I

Don't want to go

It just goes to show

Just how sick I

But sometimes I can't escape

There's not enough strength

The strength I need to live

But for some reason I

Don't want to go

It just goes to show

Just how sick I

Just how sick I

Just how sick

I can't seem to shake my deadly cravings to

Waste my time in life

I can't seem to stop

Too much thought and no time to sit and not

How'd I get this way and how can I change

All I want this time

Is to make it work

I'll give my all and

Hope I won't fall l again like yesterday

Yesterday I fell

Yesterday I fell

I can't play games

When every year I get behind

It's such a bind

When I get lost within my mind

And sometimes I close my eyes

To desensorize

And forget all that's gone astray

But for some reason I

Don't want to go

It just goes to show

Just how sick I am

Just how sick I am