Will to Cower

Voice inside is calling

Up from the deep

It’s aching and it’s gnawing

And I cannot sleep

What do you want with me?

Please don’t make me spill

I’m happily unhappy

Defiantly unfulfilled

In this lie I’ve built

I wanna fight against the world, against the right

I wanna settle the score, don’t wanna feel anymore

And I don’t wanna right the wrongs I write

Hold fast on my shaky ground

From what you’re asking of me

There would be no going back

There’s the line I see it

So quiet and so clear

Guts churn at the thought to cross it

Revolt in stubborn fear

It draws a steadfast offer

Leads a better way

But I shove it back down inside of me

To fight another day

Drowning in decay

I don’t wanna fight against the world, against the right

Don’t wanna settle no score, don’t wanna be anymore

But I don’t wanna fight to keep the fire ember from burning out

If I keep living this way

There’ll be no coming back.