Beautiful Disaster

Your jacket's still hanging by my door

I should've thrown it out before

Every little thing still feels the same

But nothing sounds like your name

You knew exactly where I'd break

Smiled while watching my heart shake

I kept believing we'd survive

Even when we barely tried

Maybe love was just a fire

Burning everything we had

You're my beautiful disaster

Running through my mind much faster

I keep saying I'm alright

But I still lose every fight

Every promise turned to smoke

Every"forever" slowly broke

I let you go, I closed the door

But somehow you still live here

Your shadow dances on the wall

Even when you're gone and all

The silence says what we ignored

Love shouldn't feel like war

I found pieces of myself

Hidden on a dusty shelf

Now I'm learning how to breathe

Without begging you to stay

One day I'll hear your name

And nothing inside me will change

No tears, no midnight calls

Just another story after all

You're my beautiful disaster

Just a chapter, nothing after

I'm not looking back again

I'm stronger than I've ever been

Every scar became a light

Leading me beyond the night

You were never my ending line

Now this heart is finally mine

The echo fades into the air

You're no longer everywhere

I don't need your memory

To remember who I'll be