Searching for a Former Clarity - Against Me!
No the doctors didn't tell you
That you were dying
They just collected their money
And sent you
On your way
But you knew all along
Went on pretending nothing was wrong
You said I will keep my focus
Till the end
And in the journal you kept
By the side of your bed
You wrote nightly in aspiration
Of developing as an author
Confessing childhood secrets
Of dressing up in women's clothes
Compulsions you never knew
The reasons to
Well everyone
You ever meet or love
Be just relationship based
On a false presumption
Despite everyone
You ever meet or love
In the end
Will you be all alone
As the disease spreads
Slowly through your body
Pumped by your heart to the tips
Of your arms and your legs
Your greatest fear was
That your mind wouldn't last
Your coherency and alertness
Would be the first things to fade
As your hair thinned
As the weight fell off
As your teeth blackened
As the lesions spotted your skin
As you fell to your knees
In the center of the stage
As you offered witness to mortality
In exchange for the ticket price
As the lights blended into the continuing noise
As all hope
Was finally lost
Adrenaline
Carried one last thought to fruition
Let this be the end
Let this be the last song
Let this be the end
Let all be forgiven
