Open the Blinds (Explicit)

Don't you think that's enough for now?

That I exposed enough of my own thoughts

To power my anxiety for the next few months

Well shit

Is that what's going to happen?

Then I'll crawl back into my room

With my feelings of impending doom

And I'll sleep

Because it's safer than thinking

But I want to love myself

A little more

A little

Still it's tough when life decides to fuck you up again

When it takes your family

And gets you stuck some place you can't call home

At least we are not alone

If it doesn't get easier, at least it gets more bearable

And I just want to love myself

A little more

Let the cold water run

It's gotta warm up eventually, right?

Brighter times might come

I just need to open the blinds

I let fresh air into my place for the first time in what feels like years

It could be so much worse, I guess it could be so much worse than this

I paid my rent this month and could afford something to eat

It could be so much worse, I guess it could be so much worse than this

Next time I'll look a little further than just into myself

I could feel so much worse than this

Let the cold water run

It's gotta warm up eventually, right?

Brighter times might come

I just need to open the blinds