Hard To Say

Hard To Say

I sit in silence more than I should

Swallowing words that don’t taste good

I rehearse the truth inside my mind

But it never makes it past the line

I nod and smile, I fake it well

But there’s a storm I never tell

They ask me how I’m really doing

I say, “I’m fine” and keep on moving

Why’s it so easy to lie?

But so hard to let the truth fly?

Why’s it hard to say what I feel?

When everything I hide is real

My chest is heavy, my voice is light

My heart is screaming through the night

I wish I knew the words to start

To pour the weight inside my heart

But I just smile and walk away

It’s always hard to say

Sometimes I think they wouldn’t care

Or maybe it’s just my own despair

Maybe I’m scared to fall apart

So I lock up every broken part

What if my truth makes them leave?

What if I’m too much to believe?

So I choose quiet over pain

And bottle tears like falling rain

I write my feelings into songs

But in real life, I get it wrong

Why’s it hard to say what I feel?

When everything I hide is real

My chest is heavy, my voice is light

My heart is screaming through the night

I wish I knew the words to start

To pour the weight inside my heart

But I just smile and walk away

It’s always hard to say

I want to be brave, I want to be free

To say the truth that’s killing me

But fear’s a wall I cannot climb

So I just say, “I’m doing fine…”

Why’s it hard to say what I feel?

When the silence is louder than steel

Every beat inside my chest

Is holding back what should confess

If love is truth, then hear me now

I want to speak, just don’t know how

So I just smile, and fade away...

It’s always hard to say

It’s always...

Hard...

To say...