My Meds Aren't Working - Dystopia
My body still clings to life
Only my spirit has died inside
I pray for death every night
But I keep waking up alive
I cut myself for infliction
And I still spit at my reflection
I hate everything I am
I have my friends to thank for that
So I keep taking my meds
And I do what my doctor says
I hate myself more everyday
I guess I'll always be this way
I've learned that love is dead
And people just get ****** instead
And all the while making friends
Just to **** them in the end
Everyone I touch infects me
Cancer in flesh there is death all around
Everyone I touch I infect them
Black and dead is my heart
Alone I pace and I tear
At my skin and my hair
Burn myself for some relief
For a sick ****** joke of a life
The punchline is when I die
And come back as me for eternity
Just to **** up everyday
And fail the ones that
I love by being alive
I don't know who I am anymore
A parasite in human disguise
Searching for a piece of ****
With all of you ******* maggots and flies
Everyday I feel that
I just can't do anything right
I'm sorry if you know my name
I'll probably **** up your life
