Learning To Stay (Explicit)

I treated my soul like a place I’d leave

A tired old house, just keys and dreams

Rain through the roof most every night

Cracked walls from years of trying to fight

I watched the lights in other homes

Thought maybe I was built wrong

I packed my bags inside my head

Kept thinking I’d be better off dead… elsewhere

I waited on a knock that never came

Thought someone else would fix the pain

This old house is all I own

Ain’t no other life to call my own

Ain’t nobody coming anyway

So I’m learning…

Yeah, I’m learning to stay

I let the dust sit in every room

All the things I wouldn’t face too soon

Patched what I could with these two hands

Let go of dreams I couldn’t mend

I dragged that chair called guilt outside

Left it in the yard, let it die

Pulled something softer up instead

A place to sit, a word called “enough”

I’m cracked and worn, but I’m still here

And for once, that feels sincere

This old house is all I own

Every scar cut into stone

Ain’t nobody coming anyway

So I’m learning…

Yeah, I’m learning to stay

I ain’t fixed

I ain’t whole

But I’m done running from my own soul

This old house is all I own

A steady fire, a backbone

The door’s still open, but I won’t stray

’Cause I’m learning…

Yeah, I’m learning to stay

Evening light on the front porch rail

A warm cup, a southern wind

I don’t need nowhere else today

I finally stayed.