Conversations With Myself

I’ve been color blind between black and white

Hiding out in camouflage

Everything is night in a sea of light

All I do is sabotage

Fighting those battles inside of my chest

Dreading whatever comes next

When I give my all still I’m two feet tall

No one knows I’m

Laying in the dark

My head and my heart

Picking me apart

No ceiling when these feelings start

They don’t wanna stop

Dancing with the clock

Three AM

I’m patiently waiting for the sun

Hoping heaven gets me out of hell

I know that it’s weighing on my health

Having conversations with myself

23 unread 'cause it’s all been said

Loneliness is my own fault

Make 'em think I’m fine 'cause it kills my pride

Say nobody cares at all

I just wanna let go of the pain

Maybe I should give myself some grace

Talking to these walls, yeah they’ve heard it all

They can see me

Laying in the dark

My head and my heart

Picking me apart

No ceiling when these feelings start

They don’t wanna stop

Dancing with the clock

Three AM

I’m patiently waiting for the sun

Hoping heaven gets me out of hell

I know that it’s weighing on my health

Having conversations with myself

I got a demon on my left, angel on my right

I’m somewhere in the middle of the fight

God I’m such a mess, water in my eyes

Hoping that tomorrow I’ll be fine

Laying in the dark

My head and my heart

Picking me apart

No ceiling when these feelings start

They don’t wanna stop

Dancing with the clock

Three AM

I’m patiently waiting for the sun

Hoping heaven gets me out of hell

I know that it’s weighing on my health

Having conversations with myself