wassup;) (Explicit)

You, you’ve got a lot on your plate this week // a lot of promises you couldn’t keep, and that’s just fine // I’m just trying not to lose my **** this time // avoiding everything and say I’m fine, and we’re out of sync // I’m not sure why nothing makes me feel like getting out of bed // and I’m not sure what’s going wrong inside my head // I’ve honestly never felt this lousy in my life before // it makes no sense to me I should be happy should be thankful for // the friends I have around me, the support of my fractured family // but still I’m just pretending that I’m fine when I’m feeling lousy all the time // I’m such a **** // I’m such a ****ing piece of **** and you hate me for it // We just haven’t really been on the same page // crossing out wires, oversensitive to everything you say to me but I // I think that I’m so self-aware but I just overthink // still I never realized how much it’s been infecting // I’ve honestly never felt this lousy in my life before // it makes no sense to me I should be happy should be thankful for // the friends I have around me, the support of my fractured family // but still I’m just pretending that I’m fine when I’m feeling lousy all the time //