Reaching without reason, faces made of air Iron drums in the cellar are calling up the stairs I return to the dirt and then I rise again
Turn the soil over, close the box I sent
In the van dry heaving, pop your aching heart
Go to clear your mind out, pick your life apart Sobbing in the bathroom, as I'm walking home Follow me to my apartment, drag me out the door
Slip into the back room, I'm training for tonight Colors of the rainbow, I'm running out of fight
I can smell your perfume, but I can't hear your voice Telling me to go home, but I don't have the choice
I don't care what you said about my friend
I just need to know if you're struggling to breathe You threw your drink at me as I was leaning in But I still asked you if you wanted to leave
I talk to the mirror like I'm trying to start a fight And you're not scared of anger anymore
And I dance in an empty house
Patron saint of wisdom is standing down the hall My only proper instinct brings me to her altar
I can feel hot breath dripping from above
Voices like an ocean, drunken and screaming
Tell me what you want, tell me what you came for
Do you want to dance, or did you come to hide from the dead The feeling of knowing that you will never see this place again Happiness is leaving, my hand is falling through her wrist
You're not scared of my anger anymore
So I don't think it's gonna be able to work itself out I don't know what I dreamed about the other night But I count time in decades now
Ushering me further down
Grabbing me and shaking me awake
I daydream about melting into water
And I feel like drowning
And I think in impossible fantasies
And I believe in whatever you think is best
And I'll be sitting here the rest of the night Waiting for you to call
