Falling Apart

What if I never told my story?

Then they wouldn't knew they're the reason that I'm falling apart

Even if I wanted to let you know, it's okay

All those years of therapy, they never even worked

I started a crowdfunding but it isn't the type of money I need

I just need a word from you like"I'm sorry" and then it’s fine

You know, it’s more the type of Monet I need

Hopefully you understand

At least I hope you understand, ‘cause I’m trying to be better

Even if we just completely forget the fact that i'm falling apart

Life would've be such a fool to me

I quietly give up, it doesn't even kill me to say at least

Asking myself why did i deserve all of this?

It seems like you and I have some unresolved issues

I refuse to believe we’re both wrong

Even tho, I know it’s true

But I’m still the one falling apart (aapp)

These are my reasons I believe in faith for me and you

I find it hard to forget, I’ll never forget about a thing

Forgiveness, that’s something I am willing to make happen

But please don’t expect that I’m wrapping a Christmas gift for you

From Christmas to my Birthday, from my Birthday to your Birthday

I’ll will forgive but I’m still falling apart

I still have hard times with my own trust

Even if we just completely forget the fact that i'm falling apart

Life would've be such a fool to me

I quietly give up, it doesn't even kill me to say at least

Asking myself why did i deserve all of this?

You know a part of me is still stuck in all that happend between us

You know it still hurts to much to talk about

Still I’m asking myself why did i deserve all of this?

I’m about to give up, it doesn't even kill me to say at least

So I know I’m falling apart with you and the devil is waiting on me

No matter how I try, I always keep falling apart

The memories keep on haunting me

’Til I’m trying to break free from my memories

It’s the circle of live, I’d never get out of

Even if we just completely forget the fact that i'm falling apart

Life would've be such a fool to me

I quietly give up, it doesn't even kill me to say at least

Asking myself why did i deserve all of this?

I keep on having faith

One day I will be free and not falling apart

Then I can sleep without worrying ‘bout everything

It’s the worst feeling ever, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye, bye, bye, bye worst feeling ever