Everything At Once (Explicit)

“Hello! How are you?

Please step into my office.

We’ll take your straight jacket

Once you have shown progress.

Emotionally drained,

And physically restrained.

You belong in a cage

When you’re feeling

Everything at once.”

There’s a bird in the window

It’s wing slightly damaged

It’s tapping a fight song

In morse code to balance

The chaos in contrast

The beauty in sadness.

Read too far into this

When feeling

Everything at once.

I’m feeling everything at once.

So I brush my teeth, comb my hair, wear the right shirt.

I grin eating shit, take up space on this good earth.

I’m happy. I’m angry. I’m manic. I’m lazy.

I’m sick of explaining

And feeling everything at once.

I’ll keep digging through dirt.

Keep working through the hurt.

Keep on spending my money

To go back to work.

I’m defeated and awkward,

Victoriously haunted

But who’s keeping up

When I’m feeling everything at once.

I’m feeling everything at once.

I feel it.

I feel it.

I feel it spilling over and blending in

Until the inward turns inside out again.

It’s all so important.

I feel so sadistic

Until I remember

I’m just a statistic.

The war in my head is the silence in this room,

And nobody hears you when

Feeling everything at once.

So you carry the burden,

Accept your own loss.

Kind of feels like you’re

Nailing yourself to a cross.

What a dumb ****ing sickness.

What’s actually wrong?

But with god as my witness,

I’m feeling everything at once.

I’m feeling everything at once.