Hoping for snow

I was hoping for the snow

so that I could stay at home

while everything outside

stays frozen in place and unchanged.

I was hoping for the snow

so I wouldn't have to go

to the hospital where your

hands were swollen and cold.

But the weather doesn't see me at all

doesn't miss the weight of whatever falls.

I was standing by the shore

down the road from your sister's store

watching all the ice just pile up

more and more.

But this big river doesn't mind its loss,

its change of phase or change of course.

In my dream I fed the deer

right from my palm.

She didn't make a sound

just met my eyes a while.

I was hoping for the snow

To white out all the world

so I don't have to see

the edges anymore.

But the world doesn't see me at all

doesn't touch the edges or feel the faults