Perhaps, I Suppose

The days they go even slower it seems

I'm only at peace, at peace in my dreams

But dreams won't come because I can't sleep

I lay awake for hours with this pain that runs deep

I say I love you but actually I don't

I want to tell you and we both know I won't

But which is worse, no love or alone?

A glutton for punishment perhaps, I suppose

I write letters in my head that I'll never send

I'm hiding all my words just to avoid the end

I smile a lie and promise you forever

But I'd rather be anything than together

I say I love you but actually I don't

I want to tell you and we both know I won't

But which is worse, no love or alone?

A glutton for punishment perhaps, I suppose

Just maybe, maybe, I'll figure this out

But honestly, probably

I won't

But maybe, someday, I'll figure this out

Just honestly, truly

I hope not

I say I love you but actually I don't

I want to tell you and we both know I won't

But which is worse, no love or alone?

A glutton for punishment perhaps, I suppose

But maybe, someday, I'll figure this out

Just honestly, truly

I hope not

Just maybe, maybe, I'll figure this out

But honestly, probably

I won't

I say I love you but actually I don't

I want to tell you and we both know I won't

But which is worse, no love or alone?

A glutton for punishment perhaps, I suppose

Just maybe, maybe, I'll figure this out

But honestly, probably

I won't

But maybe, someday, I'll figure this out

Just honestly, truly

I hope not