RIP JEFF (Explicit)

i named my ego jeff

fuck you jeff

go die a brutal death

yeah

it's no sweat

glad to get you off my chest

no regrets #noragrets

now let me catch my breath

cuz what's next?

you drown out all my happiness

there's nothing left

hey jeff

hey jeff can i ask you for a present?

can i be present for a second?

why is everything so hectic?

been awake for 32 seconds

can't i have a cup of coffee

before i'm forced to remember how close death is?

i live the easiest life ever

i'm privileged and nothing merits this level of stress

but you're throwing grenades at each side of my brain

and the perpetrators escape before i can detect them

i look at people like

what are they thinking?

i know they're thinking less

you can only get by one day at a time

with little acts of courage

like going to bed

without drinking a whole bottle of wine

rip!

rip jeff

goddamn

i don't miss you at all

i thought you were me

but i'm more like the leaves that you see change in the fall

i finally can admit i was wrong

i feel lighter without

all of the baggage you've been dragging along

if i had a dollar for every second you've wasted of mine

i'd have a red ferrari

not to mention half of my time

i'd have enough to end hunger

get mom a tesla in white

and close every single farm where they make animals die

(and buy jade a hot tub)

can i ask you one closing question?

why did you make this perfect miracle feel like a test

and make all these messes

that i had to clean up without any directions?

and you know that thinking about what could've been

is so fuckin depressing

but we soldier on

make up for lost time

hope for the best

and when this is all over

i'll wish that i could do it again and again