Changes My Self

I don’t recognize my face tonight,

Smiling less, pretending I’m alright.

I used to laugh without a doubt,

Now silence is what I’m about.

I bent my heart to make you stay,

Somehow I lost myself that way.

Loving you changes my self,

I forgot who I was for someone else.

I gave my soul, I lost my ground,

Trying not to let you down.

Now I’m fixing what you broke,

Learning how to love my ghost.

Loving you changes my self.

I dressed my pain in pretty lies,

So you wouldn’t see me cry.

Every time you walked away,

I blamed my heart, not your mistakes.

I tried to be what you need,

But I bled quietly.

Loving you changes my self,

I put your world above my health.

I shrank my voice, I dimmed my light,

Just to keep you by my side.

Now I’m stronger on my own,

Picking pieces, skin and bone.

Loving you changes my self.

If losing you is how I grow,

Then maybe this pain helps me know.

I’m not weak for feeling deep,

I’m just human when I weep.

Loving you changed my self,

But I’m finding me again myself.

I’ll love louder, I’ll stand tall,

I won’t disappear at all.

This goodbye is good for my health,

I’m becoming someone else.

Loving you changed my self.

I lost you…

But I found me.