[00:05.15]Hmmm I don't even wanna f**kin do this song for real but I wouldn't be real if I didn't
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[00:14.96]I be sittin' by myself and I be thinkin' mama what have I become
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[00:18.23]All I wanted was a family but I when I look I be the only one
[00:21.14]Losin' everything but money everybody left and I don't even get to see my young
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[00:24.50]Only happiness I get is in the studio when I get to do another run
[00:27.38]On the road
[00:28.10]Doin' shows
[00:28.94]Get the woes
[00:29.75]When it slows
[00:30.56]Gettin' cold
[00:31.40]Gettin' owed
[00:32.21]But the flows
[00:33.02]Gettin' sowed
[00:33.86]I been doin' this a minute but I think I want to end it
[00:35.54]Cause I think I'm on a higher level when I go
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[00:37.61]But the music I be doin' it be losin' it I'ma make it really tough for me to grow
[00:40.49]All I wanted was a family portrait
[00:42.05]See my babies on a ranch with horses
[00:43.67]But I was f**kin' devil b***hes in corsets
[00:45.35]I was never really good then I torched it
[00:47.15]I'm sorry Mrs Jackson I'm speakin' for real
[00:48.68]And I never meant to make your daughter cry
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[00:50.69]But I guess I'm a failure with women
[00:52.10]I'm lost and I feel like I ought to die
[00:53.75]Feel like it I'm rottin' away
[00:55.40]My life is just off in the gray
[00:57.02]How much does it cost I will pay
[00:58.25]To lay and be off in a coffin today
[01:00.26]I mean off in ashes this life and after it clashes if I get blasted
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[01:03.83]This is suicide letters all over again I thought that I passed it
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[01:07.13]But I guess that I didn't cause this one is written and there is no mending
[01:10.40]But I broke I'ma a joke when I croak I just hope that I won't be descending
[01:13.43]But this ain't a joke I want you to know that tech nina is never pretending
[01:16.70]Alone in my bed with a gun to my head asking where is my happy ending
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[01:21.08]Yea
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[01:21.83]Tell me who it is
[01:22.58]
[01:23.75]What about me
[01:25.31]
[01:26.60]Where is my happy ending
[01:30.35]What about me
[01:31.94]
[01:33.20]Is this a life worth living
[01:36.23]You know how it beacons
[01:37.34]But how does it end for me
[01:39.44]Will I ever live
[01:40.46]Or does he have it in for me
[01:42.38]Will this pop before I stop breathin'
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[01:46.07]Is there light in this dark I'm seein'
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[01:52.22]Yea
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[01:52.82]I put my life in this music
[01:54.53]Nina is inside out
[01:56.09]I set my heart out for people
[01:57.77]They know what the inside bout
[01:59.54]Will they keep feelin' nina forever this I doubt
[02:02.63]Can never cry for help so if you listenin' this my
[02:05.48]Shout
[02:06.32]I'm searchin' for the passageway to happiness
[02:09.59]But I'm worldly so I have to lay in nastiness
[02:11.78]
[02:12.53]Yes this a strange year worldwide fames near
[02:15.77]But the games queer sometime I feel like I'm Rudolph the reindeer
[02:19.01]But instead of a red nose
[02:20.81]I stay in my red clothes
[02:22.31]And the music they said blows
[02:23.99]Is on the top and the cred grows
[02:25.58]Can you resurrect a motherf**ker that feel like he possess a dead soul
[02:29.09]Deteriorates when inferior state almost equal to bread mold
[02:32.30]Now as my head goes wish I could shed those
[02:35.42]Because all of the times the nina was shorted when I bled froze
[02:38.78]So now that I'm cold blooded and hella sick is what the med shows
[02:42.20]The tred slows and don't even think you revivin' a dead rose
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[02:47.72]Yea
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[02:58.64]Listen
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[03:18.29]I'm on the verge of insanity but I'm competent
[03:21.62]I'm breakin' so I picked this one to vent
[03:23.78]The reason I look away when you talk to me my brain is producin' evilness
[03:27.77]I'm drownin' in 151 and rum I meant that's how I feel
[03:31.49]I sit in the mirror with this gun and practice how to kill
[03:34.67]But I know d**n well that the people like me really wanna know how to chill
[03:37.97]This is life is bout it check bout a number
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[03:41.24]Think of all the love I lost
[03:42.59]Because my quest is not a meal
[03:44.54]I feel like you stupid
[03:45.86]Don't talk to me I'm crackin' up
[03:47.99]I don't mean laughter I'm full of bitterness and its backin' up
[03:51.20]And I live with angels but lately demons been shackin' up
[03:54.38]Tug of war with my spirits see the blood I'm hackin' up
[03:57.71]I love my kids and my fans inside I sob harder
[04:00.92]Cause you paid the price for my life and its right like bob barker
[04:04.31]And I won't pretend that its OK I'm no facade starter
[04:07.52]So I guess my only happy ending is at a massage parlor yea