I Cry in My Head - Aliza
Lyrics by：Ricky Alone
Composed by：Ricky Alone
Produced by：Aliza
My face stays calm but my mind's a mess
I don't break out loud I break in my chest
I learned how to laugh at the right times
Learned how to speak without crossing lines
I hold it together so no one can tell
That I'm screaming quietly inside myself
You think I'm okay because I don't fall apart
But you don't hear what's happening in my heart
I cry in my head where no one sees
Tears don't fall they stay in me
I cry in my head every night
I look so strong but I'm not alright
I replay your words until they bruise
Every silence feels like you
I swallow the ache so I don't explain
How loving you still feels like pain
I don't need comfort I don't need a hand
I just wish someone would understand
I cry in my head when the room is still
I hold my breath against my will
I'm trying my best so I can survive
If I let it out I might not be the one
If tears were honest you'd see the truth
That I've been breaking since losing you
I don't fall apart I disappear
Piece by piece year by year
I try in my hands behind my eyes
Where all the pain learns how to hide
I try in my hands but I stay polite
Smiling through every night
One day I'll let it out
One day I'll breathe instead
But tonight I stay
Quiet and cry in my head
