I Am Not Home - NiExshadow
I walk through rooms that once held us
The walls remember our whispers, I trust
I light a candle, try to feel
But every shadow proves it's unreal
Your jacket still hangs where I left it
Your laughter lingers, I can't forget it
I'm in this space, but I'm not alive
Just moving through, trying to survive
I smile for them, I play my part
But inside, I'm falling apart
I'm breathing, but I'm all alone
I am not home, not where you are
My heart is broken, my soul's a jar
I loved you hard, I gave my all
But love can't live where shadows fall
I'm here in body, but lost inside
I can't pretend, I can't hide
I am not home, not anymore
Since you walked out the door
I keep your photos in a drawer
I don't touch them, but I adore
Every memory, every sigh
Ghosts of love that won't say goodbye
I try to sleep, but I just turn
Thinking of lessons I have to learn
Love shouldn't leave a heart this cold
But I'm thin and I'm left alone
I talk to friends, I laugh and speak
But my own heart feels too weak
I'm living in a hollow zone
I am not home, not where you are
My heart is broken, my soul's a jar
I loved you hard, I gave my all
But love can't live where shadows fall
I'm here in body, but lost inside
I can't pretend, I can't hide
I am not home, not anymore
Since you walked out the door
Maybe someday I'll find my place
Maybe time will heal this space
But right now love has turned away
And left me wandering every day
I'm here but empty
I'm not whole
Love left a void inside my soul
I am not home, not where you are
My heart is broken, my soul's a jar
I loved you hard, I gave my all
But love can't live where shadows fall
I'm here in body, but lost inside
I can't pretend, I can't hide
I am not home, not anymore
Since you walked out the door
And even if the world goes on
I am not home
Since you've been gone
