Psalm 136

I was young when I was told that I loved god

But he murdered my mother, took her away in a black box

Now I gotta learn to sleep with the pain like a gun shot

Still he looks from above says why don't you wanna talk

All I think about is how I could've been there

Too late now gotta act like I don't care

I can't unlearn the guilt that I was given

It took a million years to be okay with living

What was the meaning in that God, for me to never be enough?

He says figure it out shove it down make your mind up

I am alone and coming undone

Is that how wanna show me love

Forever alone forever be numb

Is that what you want?

I am alone and coming undone

Is that how wanna show me love

Forever alone forever be numb

Is that what you want?

I was alone with her when she was dying

Must've been four in the morning and God you were quiet

She said you loved her but you weren't there when you were needed

You were nowhere to be found when her heart stopped beating

I am alone and coming undone

Is that how wanna show you love

Forever alone forever be numb

Is that what you want?

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me now?

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me now?

Go on go on without,

Go on go on without me hey

Go on go on without,

Go on go on without me hey

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me now?

Go on go on without,

Go on go on without me yeah