[00:11.01]Daddy was able to get a sheet of parchment paper and write a prayer on it
[00:14.82]His personal prayer thanking God for who I am
[00:18.21]I have to walk in my divine destiny
[00:20.34]There's no refuge for the renegades
[00:22.50]Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate
[00:24.60]Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind
[00:28.26]I keep hearing it's just a matter of time
[00:30.00]Losing my mind woah
[00:31.59]Part of me might never come back
[00:33.33]Trapped by all o these ghosts I left here in the past
[00:35.97]Bond has never been strong between me and my dad
[00:38.49]But why'd it had to take a tragedy for us to be a family again
[00:42.45]And as I struggle with that answer
[00:45.00]While you struggle with your cancer
[00:47.52]My eyes fill up when I thought about it but gotta stay composed
[00:50.10]Got a session later with Ransom
[00:52.08]Can't let em see you out of control
[00:54.00]No
[00:54.12]They never know that side of your soul
[00:56.40]I got a
[00:57.06]Lot on the go
[00:57.78]Do a lot of it on my own sadness grown but I'm just glad to be home
[01:00.96]That's where the heart is
[01:02.07]At least I'm back to where the art is
[01:03.81]Out here in the streets residence of the artists some of these dudes the hardest
[01:07.56]Where n***as starving
[01:08.37]Still eat your food regardless
[01:09.72]Energy that they harness is something I needed
[01:12.15]Twin peaks like two pyramids our very own Egypt
[01:14.67]Third eye open I can finally see it couldn't believe it na
[01:18.42]This the renaissance of the real n***as
[01:19.92]You gotta build with us to deal with us
[01:22.35]There's no refuge for the renegades
[01:24.45]Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate
[01:26.82]Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind
[01:30.18]I keep hearing it's just a matter of time
[01:31.95]Losing my mind woah
[01:32.94]Losing my mind
[01:33.33]Losing my mind
[01:33.72]Killa I so jealous there gah
[01:35.55]Chooops
[01:35.64]It so freaking cold here dog
[01:37.68]Anyways doggie enjoy it
[01:38.97]Bless
[01:42.12]Needed a break from the world
[01:43.47]I took time for myself
[01:44.82]I got a lot on mind
[01:46.23]A little writing should help
[01:47.28]Started writing a rhyme
[01:48.57]It start writing itself
[01:49.89]My homies thought it was tight
[01:51.33]I guess the feeling was right
[01:52.50]It made sense
[01:53.64]Got a new love I don't need all the fake friends now
[01:55.89]Tolerance for the b******t ends now
[01:57.96]And if I'm being real
[01:59.25]I had people who were more than friends I did wrong
[02:01.59]I'm just tryna make amends now
[02:03.51]I'm sorry
[02:04.77]And if I say it I mean it
[02:06.30]I hate when people say it and it ain't got the meaning
[02:08.94]If you ain't gonna talk to me direct from the heart
[02:11.07]Then why you tryna talk to me from the start
[02:13.20]I ain't about it
[02:14.19]Could do without it
[02:15.06]It don't get harder than this
[02:16.20]Sometimes I feel like my heart is just as dark as my lips
[02:18.90]Woah
[02:19.74]Mom I love you but I'm still growing up
[02:21.39]So I gotta see the world cause I'm still blowing up
[02:24.84]We making moves so we still pouring up
[02:26.73]Man they music ain't a safe route
[02:28.74]It's my only way out
[02:31.20]Trina build sure enough
[02:34.47]There's no refuge for the renegades
[02:36.48]Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate
[02:39.39]Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind
[02:42.42]I keep hearing it's just a matter of time
[02:44.16]Losing my mind woah
[02:46.80]Losing my mind
[02:49.38]Losing my mind
[02:55.17]I'm going through it with the love of my life
[02:58.47]Constant conflict with this life that I love
[03:00.39]You left a paradise to come to the cold to keep me warm
[03:03.18]Can't fathom a winter with you gone you inspired this song
[03:06.00]But something wrong now we ain't the only ones who can feel it
[03:08.97]Wake up to make up we've just learnt to conceal
[03:11.43]Can't reveal it we too deep in this together now
[03:13.53]We got too much on the go to not keep it together now
[03:16.59]Live better now
[03:17.46]Coogi sweater now woah
[03:19.20]That in itself was taking its tole
[03:21.21]Couldn't understand it first so couldn't verse
[03:23.55]Selfishness and insecurity was making it worse
[03:27.36]Plus I'm my own worst enemy at times gimme a moment let this energy align
[03:31.68]New moons every blue moon
[03:32.94]Maybe this s**t was too soon
[03:34.23]Maybe it's premature or maybe I needed more
[03:36.84]Maybe you need to see that yours truly was truly yours
[03:39.24]Or
[03:39.54]Maybe I'm still truly a boy
[03:41.10]But what I do know is everything that I do though
[03:43.17]And everything that I do show is everything I needed you for
[03:46.92]There's no refuge for the renegades
[03:49.02]Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate
[03:51.36]Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind
[03:54.69]I keep hearing it's just a matter of time
[03:56.52]Losing my mind woah
[03:59.07]Losing my mind
[04:01.65]Losing my mind
[04:09.18]I don't wanna leave
[04:11.88]I don't wanna let this go
[04:16.86]But maybe you were right
[04:19.76]And maybe I can't breathe
[04:22.20]So maybe we should let this go
[04:25.74]You used to tell me that
[04:29.67]A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
[04:35.04]A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
[04:40.38]A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
[04:45.60]A happy ending depended on you
[04:51.06]A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
[04:57.15]A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
[05:01.71]A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
[05:06.90]A happy ending depended on you