Growing Sideways (Explicit) - Noah Kahan
Lyrics by：Noah Kahan
Composed by：Noah Kahan
Produced by：Gabe Simon/Noah Kahan
So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out
On some sad-eyed middle-aged man's overpriced new leather couch
And we argued about Jesus finally found some middle ground
I said I'm cured
And I divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts
Keep the bad **** in my liver and the rest around my heart
I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them
But it's a start
But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways to stay alive
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive
So I forgot my medication fell into a manic high
Spent my savings at a Lulu now I'm sufferin' in style
Why is pain so damn impatient
Ain't like it's got a place to be
Keeps rushin' me
But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways to stay alive
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
And if all my life was wasted
I don't mind I'll watch it go
Yeah it's better to die numb than feel it all
Oh if all my time was wasted
I don't mind I'll watch it go
Yeah it's better to die numb than feel it all
But I ignore things and I move sideways
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day Lord knows there are worse ways to stay alive
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive
