I left the dishes where they sat
Your mug still cracked on the shelf
The chair by the window stays warm
Like you just stepped out yourself
I keep your name in my mouth
Then swallow it back again
I smile when they ask if I'm fine
But my hands shake under the table
Every good day feels borrowed
Every night feels unstable
Unchecked grief
It keeps on growing
Unchecked grief
I can't stop knowing
I say your name
It opens up
Unchecked grief
It fills my cup
I found your scarf in the hall
Still smelling like that cheap soap
I folded it slow in my arms
Like folding a little bit of hope
The phone stays dark in my hand
I don't know who to call
I smile when they ask if I'm fine
But my hands shake under the table
Every good day feels borrowed
Every night feels unstable
Unchecked grief
It keeps on growing
Unchecked grief
I can't stop knowing
I say your name
It opens up
Unchecked grief
It fills my cup
Maybe I wanted the flood
To prove that I loved you enough
Maybe I held it too tight
Till it turned every day into rust
So let it break
Let it spill
I still miss you
I always will
Unchecked grief
It keeps on growing
Unchecked grief
I can't stop knowing
I say your name
It opens up
Unchecked grief
It fills my cup
Unchecked grief
I let it show me
Unchecked grief
I don't outrun it
I say your name
And it comes back
Unchecked grief
It never left
