lovesick

Am I a sensitive boy now?

When they say love, I hear a sound

It's me crying in the bathroom

When I was eleven or twelve

After my mom punched me out

So I built my childhood with lies

I had to tell a million to survive

I used to heard and reply

Now I can recognize a liar just looking in their eyes

And I said I love you

And I said it was a secret

You weren't able to keep it

And I know I'll cry

Cry, every night

I only have my arms

Am I too sick for love?

Love smells like her cologne

Vanishing in my corridor

Haunting ghosts in my empty home

Vanishing like my dad did

Before I even exist

And this only girl that fooled me

Messed with my head and broke me like a puzzle piece

Made me afraid that anyone who says they love me

Are hiding something in their sleeves

They're hiding something from me

And they'll run away from me

From the jigsaw they helped me to be

And I said I loved you

And I said it was a secret

You weren't able to keep it

And I know I'll cry

Cry, every night

I only have my arms

Am I too sick for love?

I'm too tired for love

I'm done with love

Brand new day with my grandma's by my side

But I've been mourning since I was five

Even though she never left my side

But I fear the day she'll die

And I fear the day I'll die

Why am I so worried about just one day that hasn't even arrived?

Why I don't simply enjoy the days that I'm alive?

And she's alive with me?

Aren't the best days the days that we're alive?

Cry, cry

Cry, oh, cry

I'm lovesick for love

- Someday, we will all die

- True, but not every other day!