When I Try to Forget You

When I Try to Forget You

I burned the letters, closed the door

Told my heart not to ache anymore

I whispered lies to my reflection

Said I’m healed, I need no resurrection

I packed your name in silent boxes

Buried deep in mental losses

But every night your ghost returns

With every memory that still burns

And the more I try to walk away

The more I feel your shadow stay

'Cause when I try to forget you

Is when the missing cuts me through

The farther I push you from my mind

The tighter your echo seems to bind

I swear I let go, I tell myself it's true

But that’s when I most remember you

When I try to forget…

Is when I feel you the strongest too

I change my hair, I change the song

Erase the streets where we belonged

I chase the daylight, fake a grin

But darkness always lets you in

I say your name like it's a stranger's

But my chest still holds the danger

Of every laugh and every kiss

That writes you back on nights like this

They say that time will heal the ache

But love like ours just doesn’t break

'Cause when I try to forget you

Is when the pain feels born anew

I scream you're gone into the air

But memories bloom everywhere

I promise I’ve moved on, I act like I’m brand new

But darling, that’s when I miss you

When I try to forget…

You hold me like you never do

Maybe forgetting is a lie

A softer word to say goodbye

But truth is love that stays behind

Is the hardest one to leave in time

'Cause when I try to forget you

Is when I drown in all we knew

The harder I fight to let you go

The deeper your roots begin to grow

I loved you once, I love you still

Even if I never will

Have you back…

I know it's true—

When I try to forget...

Is when I most remember you

I remember you...

When I try... to forget...