Nothing Special. (Explicit)

I storm out myself a couple of times

Driving around with no place to hide

Out of my mind, a stranger inside

Laughs all the time, he's laughing at me

And my misery, is what kept me high

Screaming in circles like the last time we tried

But I've wasted my time (wasted my time)

Yes, I've wasted my

All eyes on me, expecting I'll miss

I'm getting stuck like there's gum on my feet

I should let myself cry

I should let myself fly away from here

I'm nothing special but I'm standing up and putting up a fight

I have good intentions but my mind is always holding me back

Not this time

Not this time.

Let the trial begin, the jester's ready to grieve

Not as naive as I once, as I once I let you believe

I try to be tough, I try to scream

You kept me captive, kept me in

I'm getting loony with those rusty strings

Why is my mind so full of shit

Thoughts all the time it makes me sick

I cry my eyes out but still let you get in

The court room is full of shadows staring at me

I'm sick and tired, so ****ing tired, this case is getting dismissed

I'm nothing special but I'm standing up and putting up a fight

I have good intentions but my mind is always holding me back

I want redemption, wash my sins that I carry on my back

Not this time

Not this time

Not this time