I'm trapped in the depths
Like sinking into an ocean trench
There's lead in my heart
Endlessly, endlessly
An empty, dull, heavy lead Dragging me down
Never to mend
I wasn't disappointed by anything
I didn't despair over anything
There was no trigger, no sign
It always comes suddenly
Leaving me confined
Falling to the end of a deep, dark ocean
I'm afraid
Afraid of everything, stuck in this motion
I just want to die right now
To escape this torment, somehow, bow
So I lost everything
My dreams, my hope, even the light that would sing
The suffocating weight of this void
It keeps tormenting me, still employed
It's just like hydrophobia
A constant, choking agony that's my mania
(I feel like I'm being crushed. I can't get out.)
(It hurts, I can't breathe. I just want relief, without a doubt.)
Is this hydrophobia?
I had forgotten
That there's no solution, my spirit rotten
That I just have to accept it
That I have to live with this dull, heavy lead
Forever fit. In my heart
That I'll suffer forever, tearing me apart
Ah, it hurts so much, A relentless, icy touch
Falling to the end of a deep, dark ocean
I'm afraid
Afraid of everything, caught in this motion
Should I just die already?
My strength is waning
Becoming unsteady
So I lost everything
My dreams, my hope, even the light that would sing
The suffocating weight of this void
It keeps tormenting me, still employed
It's just like hydrophobia, A constant
Choking agony that's my mania
It keeps dragging me down
Even now, and tomorrow too
This heavy burden, always coming through
