Im Learning

I fold my heart like a letter I’ll never send

Read it alone, then I start again

I rehearse love in a silent room

But freeze when it’s real and you step too soon

I’ve been living in a place between yes and no

Every dream feels close but I move too slow

If I reach for you, will the truth show through

Or will I ruin the best thing I never knew

I don’t trust the light when it finds my face

I’m scared of the love I don’t think I deserve to take

I don’t want to be lonely

But I don’t know how to be close

I’m scared if you hold me

You’ll feel what I hate the most

I want you to know me

While I’m learning to be me

I’m breaking the silence slowly

And choosing to believe in me

I’m learning, I’m learning

How to let love stay

I’m learning, I’m learning

Not to run away

I measure my worth in the gaps I see

All the things I was almost brave enough to be

I chase perfection just to feel safe

Then blame my fear when I hesitate

I hear your voice and my chest goes tight

Like love is a test I’ll fail tonight

I want to believe I could let you stay

But I’ve been my own reason to walk away

If I let you in, will you stay when you see

I’m still learning how to be me

I don’t want to be lonely

But I don’t know how to be close

I’m scared if you hold me

You’ll feel what I hate the most

I want you to know me

While I’m learning to be me

I’m breaking the silence slowly

And choosing to believe in me

I’m learning, I’m learning

How to let love stay

I’m learning, I’m learning

Not to run away

I’m tired of fearing the girl I am

Like loving me was never the plan

If I wait much longer, I’ll disappear

Still full of love but ruled by fear

So if I fall, let it be out loud

Not in my head, not lost in the crowd

I’d rather be real than perfectly safe

I’d rather be broken than never be brave

I don’t want to be lonely

I don’t want to hide anymore

If you see right through me

I’ll still be standing at the door

I want you to know me

While I’m learning to be me

I’m breaking the silence slowly

I’m choosing to believe in…

I’m learning, I’m learning

How to let love stay

I’m learning, I’m learning

Not to run away