It Was Always Him

Different faces

Different evenings

Same missing piece

Every time

I've tried meeting

Men who looked perfect on the surface

Good conversations

Nothing technically was wrong

Still every evening

Ended with me thinking about someone

The one who called me

After every disappointing date

Took me too long

To see the pattern

Every comparison

Led to him

It was always him

Every date was measured against him

It was always him

Every spark fell short beside him

I kept searching elsewhere

For a feeling already present

It was always him

I was looking in the wrong direction

He calls tonight

And asks how another evening went

I tell him honestly

"I think I'm done with all of this"

He asks what happened

I say nothing happened, that's the problem

Then take the risk

And tell him what I finally understand

Long pause

Then his laughter

Not rejection

Pure relief

It was always him

Every date was measured against him

It was always him

Every spark fell short beside him

I kept searching elsewhere

For a feeling already present

It was always him

I was looking in the wrong direction

Then he tells me

Every woman

Had the same problem

They weren't me

It was always him

And apparently I was his answer

It was always him

We just took the longest route there

I kept searching elsewhere

While the feeling waited beside me

It was always him

Now neither needs another date

Different faces

Only one mattered