Becoming a Monster

I'm not in the mirror

There is only a monster with my face

With the face of a stranger

Who am I now? Who am I now...

Cursed be the day when I crossed this threshold

As if his voice has enveloped me

He whispered terrible things that I couldn't dare to think

Saying that they all can become a reality

And now I'm afraid to look at myself

Darkness swallowed me

Blood washed over my hands

And it was a pleasure

Getting closer with every step

Turning into a monster

With every drop of their blood

I'm losing the human form

He chose me to finish his job

So I became the next

Became worse than all of them

'cause darkness is too strong in me

I thought he understands me

My Lord, my curse, the eternal voice

Which replaced my mind and senses

When I saw him satisfied, I rejoiced

Getting closer with every step

Turning into a monster

With every drop of their blood

I'm losing the human form

And now I'm afraid to look at myself

Darkness swallowed me

Blood washed over my hands

And it was a pleasure

Turn away from me and break this mirror

Now I'm free but I can't be near her

Neck-deep in the blood

But it's a part of me

I can't leave

Who is the real monster

Those around me or is it me?

Erase me, forget my face

Who am I now? Who am I now

Getting closer with every step

Turning into a monster

With every drop of their blood

I'm losing the human form

And now I'm afraid to look at myself

Darkness swallowed me

Blood washed over my hands

And it was a pleasure

I'm becoming a monster

Forgive me