Lived In My Body

You sent me songs

that swore you loved me,

lyrics fighting for my heart

whispered words I craved,

but tore my world apart

With silence in the morning,

your promises undone

I’m left to trace the echoes

of what might have become

You knew exactly what to say

to keep me tied and bound

A king of the beautiful,

devastating sound

my body remembers

the heaven of your touch

The way you made me feel

breath still catching on the flame

my body remembers

scripture of your hands

The map you drew across my skin,

My body’s whispering your name,

you lived in my body,

a king but not a guest

knew the hymns to make me tremble,

songs to make me sing

built your altar in my heart

but never made it whole

You lived in my bo, o oo ody ohhh

You lived in my body

You left the lights on in my chest.

I have a good man here

beside me in our bed

Who loves me in the daylight,

Adores what you once fled

But when he touches me,

I paint your face against the darkness

I hate the woman that I am

when I pretend he's you

But it's the only way my broken heart

knows how to get through

my body remembers

the heaven of your touch

The way you made me feel

breath still catching on the flame

my body remembers

scripture of your hands

The map you drew across my skin,

My body’s whispering your name,

you lived in my body,

a king but not a guest

knew the hymns to make me tremble,

songs to make me sing

built your altar in my heart

but never made it whole

You lived in my bo, o oo ody ohhh

lived in my body

lived in my bo, o oo ody ohhh

You lived in my body

I keep your heartbeat on the lease

And the cruelest part,

the masterpiece you designed

Was making sure I knew...

no one could touch me like you did

You loved the chase,

the power of my pain

You were the high priest of my unholy,

desperate, lonely church