Crying into the Moon - JadenWest
I'm crying in a full room, nobody knows
Laughing in the air but my heart feels cold
I'm shaking hands and yeah I'm fine
But my soul breaks down every single time
Eyes on me but they don't look deep
They see my face not the scars I keep
I learned how to joke to hide the pain
Turn tears into humor so they don't ask my name
It's alright if I be bummed, I feel alone
Trying to fit in spaces that don't feel like home
I scream in my head but my lips stay sealed
Cause some wounds hurt more when they're revealed
I'm crying in a full room, lights so bright
Everybody talking, I'm losing the fight
I'm breaking in silence, holding my breath
Smiling for the world while I'm flirting with death
I'm crying in a full room, nobody is
All this heavy pain I've been holding for years
If they felt what I feel they'd leave real soon
It's warm in here as hell, yeah, crying in a full room
They love the image not the truth in my eyes
I nest the heart of believable lies
And say I'ma play like it's part of the show
But inside I'm begging my soul not to fold
I miss when my heart didn't weigh this much
When love didn't hurt every time I trust
Now I keep my guard up, emotions on you
Cause every time I open up I lose
I'm tired of being the strong one here
The one who laughs loud just to hide the fear
I give advice while I'm falling apart
Up and everybody else ignore my heart
I'm crying in a full moon, nobody sees
I'm drowning in darks while they breathe so free
I got kids in my chest that want it before
Cause I know real pain, don't cry at all
I'm crying in a full moon, soundless scream
Living in a nightmare, call it a dream
I wish I could say what I'm going through
But it's hard to be honest when you're the glue
If I disappear would they fill the space?
Or just miss the smile, not the pain on my face
I don't want attention, I just want peace
A lot of hurt that won't release
One day I'll heal, y'all still believe
But tonight the weight won't let me breathe
So I stand in crowds, feeling half alive
Trying to survive while I'm supposed to thrive
If you feel this song, you ain't alone
So much rain clouds, I'm breaking stone
If you ever cry, I would also bloom
Know how it feels, crying in a full room
Crying in a full room
Yeah
Sometimes the lonely place
Surrounded by people
