Just Attention / patterns (Explicit)

**** you if you’re the girl back home he’s waiting on, **** whatever magic you possess

**** the way that I’ve got no idea what you look like but I know your worst is better than my best

**** the way that he’ll go home and he’ll play the saint and you won’t ever hear about the girl from out of state, **** the way that it ends up being you that I hate instead of him

**** the way he claims this isn’t about me, **** the fact that he said it when he was drunk

**** the way that it’s still disappointing, when sexual attraction doesn’t turn into like and like doesn’t turn into love

**** the way that I’m still gonna get on a plane, to go and visit that boy in another state, and **** the way that it ends up being me that I hate instead of him

Cause we weren’t even dating and neither were they, so even if I wanted to what could I say?

Oh cause it’s partially my fault for assuming I meant more to him and I take some of the blame because I accepted the love he was willing to give, but that wasn’t really love at all, just attention

**** the way this airline won’t exchange or refund my ticket, **** the fact that self-respect means staying home, and **** the way that he gets to “play the game” and ends up happy and I lose two hundred dollars and I end up alone

And **** the way that dignity hurts so bad, or that I had to lose something I never really had, **** the way it’s the situtation that I hate instead of him

He was planning to forget me while I was planning how to stay, he got drunk on distance cause distance made things feel safe, I was just some silly girl, I meant nothing to him

Convenience was the catalyst and he swears to her it’ll never happen, cause after all we were just friends

We weren’t even dating and neither were they, so even if I wanted to what could I say?

Oh cause it’s partially my fault for assuming I meant more to him and I take some of the blame because I accepted the love he was willing to give, but that wasn’t really love at all, just attention

**** the way that it took me writing this song, to figure out it was him I should’ve hated all along

I am good at noticing patterns, I have been hurt before, I tend to be overly cautious because people want me and then they get bored, so I build walls instead of bridges, I learn to protect myself, cause every time I love someone they always lose interest and find it in someone else

So I am good at noticing patterns (I am good at noticing patterns, I am good at noticing patterns)

That’s why I am good noticing patterns