Letter to God

Dear God, it's me again at 4:04

Writing thoughts I've never said before

She's asleep while I pace this room

And the silence feels like doom

I don't know how prayer's supposed to sound

But I'm hoping you're somehow still around

I don't need answers, or flashing signs

Just keep her safe while she's still mine

She's the reason I believe

In something bigger than just me

So if you're listening, if you care

Here's my broken little prayer

This is my letter to God tonight

Not for me, but for her light

She makes my chaos feel like grace

She holds me still in a spinning place

I don't know heaven, I don't know rules

But if You're there, don't play me a fool

Let her laugh, let her dreams unfold

She's the only pure thing I hold

I know I cuss, I screw things up

I miss your calls, I hang it up

But she believes in things like fate

So maybe You could clean my slate

I don't want wealth, I don't want fame

I just want to be worthy of her name

So if you're bored, or have some time

Fix this mess that's calling her"mine"

She's the reason I believe

That even I could maybe breathe

So if you're still up there, still awake

Give me this one thing I won't break

This is my letter to God tonight

I've never begged, but this feels right

Don't let me ruin something good

Don't let her love be misunderstood

She's the calm in my reckless sound

She keeps my feet on shattered ground

So if You're real, if You still give

Just help me be the man who loves her right and lets her live

I don't need a sign in the sky

Just a little strength to not say goodbye

I'll fight my demons, I'll cut the noise

Just help me stay and make her choice

This is my letter to God tonight

Punk kid bleeding through the mic

She saved my heart without a clue

So maybe You could save me too

I'm not asking for a miracle sound

Just a way to never let her down

So read this mess in crooked rhyme

And if You're kind give me more time