Enjoy The Ride (Explicit)

I barely like you

it’s really the memories that

hold me

hostage

my mind make me watch it

replay it over and over again

being close to him

smelling his skin

sucking his lips

tasting his chin

My mind replays this ish over and over again

taking out the bad parts of how you weren’t really there for me

remixing all the moments you couldn’t look out for me

or didn’t listen

or when you lacked vision

no direction

no mission

no plan

no freakin’ ambition

or wanted me to possibly take care of you and me

or wanted me to guide the ship

i ain’t captain T

i aint mr.D

he who has the dick

should not rely on me

mama's boy will play with toys

But you will not play with me

Boy toys r us is closed

And you will not play for free

so why i feel….so played geez

nevermind

no nickels no dimes

new car

spit shine

spend time

lay up

make up

just get your bread up so you can be mine…

but why should he change

if i let the **** slide

Why should he change if I didn’t mind?

cause he was….

sweeter than cinnamon

heaven sent

had me bent

loving him

knowing this

was never meant

so evident

but i can't deny

i surely enjoy the ride

down

bigger than elephants

in a room

with no air

we **** up the vibe

Cause egos don’t like to share

egos like elephants

elephants like egos

wish i had a giraffe neck

to see around it

Tho it was see through

That Ike and Tina thing was never been sexy to me

a toxic relationship with music notes and poetry

Not the sort of bed I wanted to lay in

or stay in

but i’m laid up

after a bad argument

here comes a good ****

here comes the good love

who cares about the drama

if we end with a good note

i mean nut?

naa Tank’s not like that

she write poems and leads with love

but i’m a black woman with trauma

my blueprint ****ed up

i mean i want my relationship to work

but i’m ****ed up

sweeter than cinnamon

heaven sent

had me bent

loving him

knowing this

was never meant

so evident

but i can't deny

i surely enjoy the ride

down