aT tHE mOMENT (Explicit)

Nowhere I want go

Nowhere I want to stay

cause’ I got nothing I rather I wanted do

than lay right here with you

But there is nothing, nothing to do

the passion has been gone for too long, yeah

All of this for nothing too

The one beside me don’t have to be you

Just now it hit me

The realization

Cause at the moment

there is no relation

The ship is sinking

so I keep singing

there is no other way

Oh I’ve been awaiting it

Somebody, I’m feeling so lonely

Trust me when I’m saying it

Somebody, I’m feeling so lonely

Why is this feeling praying on me, when I’ve been done for so long

I can’t really trust no-one, last words you said since you’ve been gone

But I swear on my grave I won’t disrespect anyone, like I did you

I think I hurt everyone that I touch, that’s the **** I’m going through oh no

I’ve been runnin’, runnin’, runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ from my past

All the things that I did wrong

Didn’t think about bout my mom

didn’t think about my fam,

apologies in advance

All the **** that I lost

All the chaos I done

I’m sorry to everyone that I hurt

People want so much

but I’m only human

And that’s what I really learned

Yeah, that’s what I learned

Mom I know you would do anything for the best of me

Wish I could pay the bills

Wish that I was better

Never meant to upset her

Rain looking like glitter

Blonde playing in the background

Thinking of the day that I met her

And it’s the problems that haunts me, since the beginning

Dealing with school, the expectations that I have to live up to

But I was dreaming of

thinking of a better living

but I was stuck with

dark **** that I was feeling

I’m not better

It’s myself that is unforgiven

But the *** calm me down, till I’m faceless

I make this song and it really has only one goal

I can take everything that I want, but I’m never really in control

I just wanna take my heart out, rip it out, put on the ****ing table

That’s only what I’ve been doing, and the **** that I’m only able to

But I know what you really, really, really wanna feel

And you know what I’m doing hasn’t been a part of me

But I know, what you think about me, is the only time I’m praying

Playing this song over, then I put it on this **** that it’s saying