600 clicks of pens pierce my skull
Mom says"Psychological Bullshit!"
Rules I carved:"Don't trust your blood"
Nightmare: relatives smash my stars ）
"I'll show you darkness!"they scream in cars
Dad sighs"Stop faking pain you’re blessed"
This lucky puppet’s strings are stressed
They file my nerves with broken glass
Your textbook smiles: Scorn Validate
I touch the pearl to seal my fate
Dissect my brain in hospital shades
End me with your loving hate
"You're not sick!Just weak inside!"
Cut my wrists to mute the cries
100mg serotonin flood
Dad growls **"Wasting cure in blood!"
"We gave you time!Money!Hope!"
"Now you're just a doped-up ghost!"
"My childhood was worse -I saved myself!"
"Stop this performance!"Diagnosis on shelf
I file their words with burning nails
Through PTSD’s endless jails
Their"care"tastes like electric shocks
My laughter syncs to ticking clocks
Transparent septum cracks at last
Watch sanity bleed out so fast
Drown me in your sweet collapse
One thousand sorrys scratch my veins
Ink blots form your proud disdain
LET THE NOISE REIGN
