Have you ever alone
Have you ever been alone alone
Have you ever been alone in your room
Alone
Have you ever been alone
Have you ever been alone alone
Have you ever been alone in your room
Alone
Have you ever been alone
Life’s a mother****er I know you have no control
Life isn’t always fair there’s always a swirl
I don’t know what it’s like to be in this world as a girl
But I know the fact it ain’t all daisy and rosy peaches for real
Yeah I know it feels like you don’t know me that well
You pass through my neighborhood with that cigarette smell
It seems like all you’re doing is trekking some endless trail
Will we really last that long or will time only tell
You live everyday knowing that you will encounter some curses
You’re living through this life thinking was it all worth it
And if it is then you have that feeling that you don’t deserve it
That all you did was see the chasm and then touch its surface
You wonder why do you have to suffer all this shame for so long
You don’t know what the hell you’re doing but you know that it’s wrong
You think the demon in your head will leave to be on your own
But hell nah it comes back and keeps on playing the same ****ing song
I’ve had a lot of friends who pushed me around and then ****ed me over
Saying I’m a shitty prick and loser oh wow that‘s a real dozer
They tried to ridicule me and take me out to expose my composure
The only times I really felt safe was at the back of your rover
You try to move on with new people but it’s all just the same
You’ve had so much heartbreak you can’t let go of all of your pain
**** people to the point where you try to care but don’t know their name
How long do you have to be covered in those coldhearted chains
Yeah I can’t be one to blame I know I’m an asshole
I leave people at their worst to tremble and struggle
I call you back to say I’m sorry but leave your phone on hold
I never known the **** I’ve caused and all of the sorrow
I see that your life is slowly seeping out of your hands
I’m sorry I can’t be there to love you and to go be your man
I know I ruined relationships with many I passed my chance
To become a hero but I’m not back to consuming these Xans yeah
Have you ever been alone
Have you ever been alone alone
Have you ever been alone in your room
Alone
Have you ever been alone
I used to greet everyone I met with a big ****ing smile
I used to have fun with my friends when times were young free and wild
I used to love those around me with embrace but for a while
I sought my own ambitions that drove me mad and down back out of style
Seeing that my past was a shitty grave with the words in memoriam
If I was just not by myself in these fields of eupatorium
Hoping for someone to come so I can recall my fight story of
Church nights when I drowned my sorrow reciting hymns about glory and
I know I don’t remember all of the times where I said you were mine
But you said you were fine and let’s not cross the line
That I can’t read your mind despite all of the signs
My love for you has really grown girl
You don’t even know what it feel likes to be alone
Calling those I love but no answers not even my home
Wasting time by counting sheep or scrolling down through my phone
Thinking how long I’ll live for all this misery to be shown
And to be honest I dodge all my interactions with you
I’m ****ing scared to death to simmer down and show you the truth
Anxiety has been haunting me when I was always in school
Avoiding social confrontations insecure in my youth
Abuse and insults made me the pussy-ass ***** that I was
Depression prevented me from going out with others for months
My inner demons made me crave for unjust short-lasting lust
And when I at last cry out for help no one’s there to harness my cuffs
I know it’s ****ed up for someone to come and carry my soul
To come and help me out but suffer and to do as they’re told
My ass restrains my actions stemmed from all the FOMO I hold
Why was I repelling back resulting in being left in the mold
I’ve always feared at my worst on the darkest nights in my room
After getting drunk and high off pills to the point of then smoking shrooms
That I’ll never find any real friends and that I’ll just ****ing die soon
I’ll never be the person I’ve always loved but can never look up to
Yeah you
Have you ever been alone
Have you ever been alone alone
Have you ever been alone in your room
Alone
Have you ever been alone and then you know
That when you want to go out but you have no one
And you know it’s over and when I try but have no friends to do stuff
No friends to call or to have fun
No friends to laugh in the sun
No friends I just need someone
No friends I really have none
Have you ever been alone
Yeah alone in your room when you always assume I'm fine
Without you and you consume my time and my
Mind is running at a pace I can't describe
And can’t help but find the lies you’ve planted inside
You always say you can’t ignoring plans
Looking for your next man in a short span to hand
Over all of your burdens to some other person and give your worthless
Shit to someone else who doesn’t deserve it
Coming over with your troubles, tryna spread your hate and struggles
To my unknowing guiltless self at 6 am
Go find someone else to run your **** through, lie and vent to
No more me to help you and talk to you in my tinted Benz
Shit I’d rather be alone than talk to friends on the phone
And ignore your dumb cries at the tone
Now I’m reading back the text that you sent
Filled with lies I see the true intent that you meant uh
Goddamn you’re manipulative
Complicated yet he made it to your place and see some pearly gates in
Front of him it pulls him in into your eyes so devastating
He’ll come and demonstrate the time it takes to take my place and
It got me thinking bout the nights when we would stay up drinking
But now I fake it and hate it I can’t ****ing take it
So sick of all your **** don’t wanna read your typin’
Even the doc’ can’t save us so save it
**** your commitment yeah
Have you ever been alone
Have you ever been alone alone
Have you ever been alone in your room
Alone
Have you ever been alone
You know I’m sorry for everything I did to you
You know how I called you an ugly ***** and shit
But I really want you to know that I didn’t mean that
Realizing after being alone for so long
Without anyone by my side to do anything you know to even talk to
I see now how much you really loved me and it would be really nice to see you again
So if you’re free you know just reach out
And I will always be here for you please
If you ever feel alone I hope you know
That I am always here for you and that’s always for sure
That when you come out to knock the door with your eyes on the floor
I’ll reach like never before I’m not an asshole no more
Alone
