Inner Self

I feel blood rushing through my ears

Words are creeping up my throat

Tears make me feel I'm gonna choke

But I close my eyes, keep a straight face

There's nothing more embarrassing

Than showing out how you've been feeling

And I feel like slipping out the back door

Why did I agree to be here

This can only end in tears

But I smile and wave and keep my head high

Though this place should feel like home

I'm somehow feeling all alone

Not quite young enough

To be considered sweet

Not quite old enough

to be seen as complete

So even if I was the pinnacle of elegance and charm

Since I'm 16 my inner self won't get me that far

Maybe all of it's in my head

Other kids can blend so well

While I just feel like I'm in hell

So why can't I seem to ever get it right

Outcast or the special one

I wish that I could just have fun

And I want to say that I don't mean to

Screw up conversation flows

But everybody but me knows

The way to be perfect in the spotlight

'Cause though this place should feel like home

I'm somehow feeling all alone

Not quite young enough

To be considered sweet

Not quite old enough to be seen as complete

So even if I was the pinnacle of elegance and charm

Since I'm 16 my inner self won't get me that far

Not quite young enough

To be considered sweet

Not quite old enough to be seen as complete

So even if I was the pinnacle of elegance and charm

Since I'm 16 my inner self won't get me that far