Spiral

In the depths of despair I make myself home

The only place I’ve ever known

It draws me in

I stare at the ceiling

Please salt my wounds

So I can prove to myself

That I feel something more than this nothing

But for now swallow me whole

I spiral into the dark

Watch me unravel as I fall apart

I spiral back to the start

Trapped in a cycle controlling my heart

I fear you’ll feel my burden

Disconnected in my brain

Pessimistic, I fixate

Self-inflicted injury

Masochistic misery

The abyss is convincing me

It’s just how it is and always will be

Pinned my heart to my sleeve

You watched it bleed and mistook it for apathy

Please salt my wounds

So I can prove to myself

That I feel something more than this nothing

But for now I spiral into the dark

Watch me unravel as I fall apart

I spiral back to the start

Trapped in a cycle controlling my heart

This chasm in my chest

It’s only emptiness left

Expecting nothing less

I end where I began

I spiral into the dark

Watch me unravel as I fall apart

I spiral back to the start

Trapped in a cycle controlling my heart

I spiral

This chasm in my chest

I spiral

It’s only emptiness