2AM Voicemails

It’s 2AM, I almost call

Delete the number, miss it all

My phone feels heavier tonight

Like it knows I’m not alright

I trace your name on dusty screens

Wish you knew what you mean to me

I said I’d learn to let you go

But healing moves incredibly slow

I replay moments we laughed too loud

Back when love wasn’t figured out

Now silence sits where you once stayed

I hate how memories don’t fade

You found peace, I found doubt

Same story, different routes

I tried dating someone new

But every face felt less than you

I don’t blame you for the pain

I blame hope for staying late

If I’m honest, I still pray

You think of me some days

I write songs you’ll never hear

Put emotions everywhere

If missing you was a crime

I’d be guilty every night

I leave you voicemails I don’t send

Say I’m fine but I pretend

You’re the reason I can’t sleep

My favorite secret I still keep

Maybe I’m wrong holding on

But loving you feels like home

Even broken, even lost

I’d still pay the cost