My First Order - BeeWaee
My first order today
Isn't it Americano, honestly?
Before coffee I want to order my condition
Less sweet, please
Take your time with it
Keep it at an easy temperature, strange, right?
But that's exactly me
Standing at the counter
I catch myself performing
Acting fine, acting strong, acting busy
Today I don't want to
Even if my face in the glass looks a little tired
That isn't failure, it's simply me recognizing myself
So I say it quietly
Make it light today
Keep the pace slow
Keep the heart warm
If a barista's smile can soften a room
Maybe my day can learn to be gentle too
My first order is me
Today's version
The one that doesn't overreact
The one I can actually carry
I love bold flavors
But not everyday needs them
I love big words but today I choose fewer
If my mood feels heavy
I'll let it set down a little
I won't explain it to anyone
It's just that the way I handle myself has changed
At the window seat sunlight arrives first
Then I sit beside it and check in without making a scene
Are you okay?
Yes, I'm okay
Sometimes a short answer is the most honest one
So I order again
One me, please
Warm
Slow enough to savor
My first order is me
Not the version that only endures
But the version that knows how to care
By the last sip
I'll understand
I didn't save the day
I treated it well
Today's first order
Was me
