Still Here (Tantrum Psalm)

Oh God, I don’t get you

I don’t understand your ways

And the prayers you don’t answer

Can send me into a fit of rage

Sometimes my love for you looks like a fist beating upon your chest

Sometimes all I’ve got to give are some angry words that I will regret

Will you love me

Even when I’m kicking up a fuss

Do you want to

Hear all of my ugly songs about

All the ways I feel like

You’re letting me down

But I’m still here

My son, I’ve still got you

Even when you turn away

I will kneel and embrace you

When you’re screaming in my face

Sometimes your love for me looks like a painful tantrum we both endure

But I’d rather receive your punches

Than to be someone that you just ignore

I will hold you

Even when you’re kicking up a fuss

And I want to

Hear all of your ugly songs about

All the ways you feel like

I’m letting you down

If it means you’re still here

You’re still here