Get Up OK

It was not worth it

Stuck to the bed

My body completely tense

Doomscrolling the news

Waiting for the world to end

You try to wake me up

Hiding your worried face

And you usually fail

And I pray you don't get upset

I got used to the darkest of pits

Pools of tar inside of my head

Self-centered and death obsessed

A slave to the chemicals in my brain

I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling

I'm falling again

I pray I'll get up ok

I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling

I'm falling again

I pray I'll get up ok, okay

I keep apologizing

For apologizing too much

Having breakdowns in public

I missed the BCNR concert

The days get uglier and uglier and uglier

You keep telling me I'll make it

But it's gonna take a few years

I got used to the darkest of pits

Pools of tar inside of my head

I was certain I could clean it up

But it grows back in a day

I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling

I'm falling again

I pray I'll get up ok

I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling

I'm falling again

I pray I'll get up ok, okay

If I lie on the ground

With my hands on my eyes

If I close the windows

If I shut, shut the doors

If I lie on the ground

With my shoes, shoes untied

Maybe it's not so bad,

Not so bad, not so bad