do i live just for nothing
counting days that keep hurting
every breath feels like suffering
while my mind starts collapsing
my prayers vanish into smoke
and now the shadows start to choke
emptiness is all i have
i have nothing left but this knife
the darkness crawling inside my skin
and it starts consuming my soul
i'm tired of swallowing these pills again
but that's the only thing can fix this hole
and i keep holding on this all night
pretending that i'm still alright
i swallow all the things i’ve never shown
and let the silence rot inside my bones
but i guess i just tremble by my own fear
waiting for a voice that never appears
and i keep asking why i'm still alive
while i desire to end this life
and i can't escape from the hell i've made
trapped in a mind that i cant erase
yet i keep asking why i'm still survive
oh dear god, i beg you to end this life
do i deserve to be happy
or it was never meant for me
i keep asking without meaning
because my prayers turn into nothing
is there somebody who can help me
or please just tell one thing to me
if death is meant to be set free
then i'll end this life quickly
